thoughts

worried about my mid years.
jokwon is really sweet.
birthday card on the way.
loneliness.
thinking hard.

i will not say i did not study for mid year
but i dare proudly say i did study hard.
though i knew the results will be lousy again
i dunno if i should lose hope with myself?
i dread having to meet teachers
cause i know i will cry and they will wan me u turn.

jokwon. he resembles someone.
and made me wondered if there are possibilities.
though it might be a wishful thinking again,
i hope i can be GAIN in some extent
and find someone who can made me happy and laugh.
will there ever be a chance?

wenxin and kaiying's bday card.
sometimes i wonder am i too involved into others' feeling
no one seems to care alot and i put in a lot of effort
but birthday its once in a lifetime
or i mean i can only celebrate with them that few times
so should not we put in more effort?
i dunno but mummy is scolding me stupid
makes me more upset. :(

sometimes i think my life is lousy but sometimes its good
i cannnot differentiate
just like maths
so irritating.
but i dunno who to ask when i want go out
cause i scare being rejected
and i like being asked though its not often.
haiz. i think i should end with this.
haiz

<3 yu