almost one month since i last blogged
many thoughts have been going through my mind

u-turn.
its halfway through my prelims
and i know my results is gonna be almost Us again.
i have no idea what i am still doing now.
to study or not to?
i don't think i have not studied hard or worked hard
but its not showing
and i dunno how to prove to others anymore.
i have no more energy no more faith no more hope.
what should i do?
but i really dun like the feeling of U-turning.
and the main reason why others can but i can't

time.
i asked if i can join you all for lunch
straight reply: huh? we finishing le ye.
next reply: yea loh.
i seriously dunno wad to say when i hear this.
a friendship worth 15 mins?
:(

home.
umbrellas thrown away.
did everything that we could.
please go away and stop worrying us here.
its all so messed up already
please please please go away.

may things changed and hope recovered.

its a loong loong loong weekend.
:)
i can do a lot of things!
its a time ...
like i know finally i can find gary to watch movie
complain and nag to him like endlessly
tell him everything that happen in sch
wahaha. the bestest friend that i could say everything!

a time for me to watch ABIT of videos.
abit i hope

a time i can catch up my work, i hope
to try hard to mug further further further.

but its also a time i am sad.
i dunno who to look for to go out
i really want to watch fireworks
sing national day song out loud
really really really really

will anyone be willing to say yes?

lets pray hard.

its potato-ing day.

hehe. one of the happiest day in a week.

lousy girl; i cried today
though i said i will not cry so easily again
haiz.
lousy lousy
but i really need put in more effort le.
results are not showing again.

hehe. my mind should stop being with them
change change change.

SACHOOM :)



hehe. i really really enjoyed it to the max.
this guy above is the one i liked most :)
though he was not the one who pulled me up on stage.
sudden source of happpiness.
thinking of it will make me smile randomly. gehehe :)

i'm so involved into the show We Got Married.
life is so sweet for these celebrities who is around my age.
haha but i am all alone :(
luckily there are friends. haiz

hehe. bestie pocky bought satay to my house.
a while since we talked and his hair is now so paul 2hill.
lol.

smiling smiling smiling
i think i look like a retard.
lol.

xinyu

thoughts

worried about my mid years.
jokwon is really sweet.
birthday card on the way.
loneliness.
thinking hard.

i will not say i did not study for mid year
but i dare proudly say i did study hard.
though i knew the results will be lousy again
i dunno if i should lose hope with myself?
i dread having to meet teachers
cause i know i will cry and they will wan me u turn.

jokwon. he resembles someone.
and made me wondered if there are possibilities.
though it might be a wishful thinking again,
i hope i can be GAIN in some extent
and find someone who can made me happy and laugh.
will there ever be a chance?

wenxin and kaiying's bday card.
sometimes i wonder am i too involved into others' feeling
no one seems to care alot and i put in a lot of effort
but birthday its once in a lifetime
or i mean i can only celebrate with them that few times
so should not we put in more effort?
i dunno but mummy is scolding me stupid
makes me more upset. :(

sometimes i think my life is lousy but sometimes its good
i cannnot differentiate
just like maths
so irritating.
but i dunno who to ask when i want go out
cause i scare being rejected
and i like being asked though its not often.
haiz. i think i should end with this.
haiz

<3 yu

happy birthday!

hello, do you blame me for spending so little time for yr b'day?
i blamed myself lei
sorry sorry sorry sorry
i will replace it with all my weekends available ok?

hope you like the card and present that i spend alot of time making
i always wonder how people will do with my gift
is my effort worth it?
do they really like it?
but thinking this will make me upset bcos i always think the wrond side
so if i ever give you a gift you must take care of it well ok?
please, i don't do it for everyone.
only people i think are worthy :)

spending too much time on scrapbooking and surprises
2 more weeks to mid year and i must buck up from tmr
jiayou jiayou jiayou and i hope i can really do well
ask me to study whenever you all see me k?

hope to update soon ...
xinyu

stepping down

in a few more minutes,
i'll no longer be a councillor of the NYJC
but a 32nd student councillor in my heart.
i did not cry today as i knew i will not.
its not because i dun have e attachment
but it just seems that something is missing.
i saw people takig photos with juniors n seniors,
but i dunno who to take photo with...
seriously.
even the 32nd i dunno who should i take photo with
i dunno who to ask
at that instant moment i was quite lost,
everything seems to become zero, blank i mean?
it's weird and i dun like the feeling.
but i dunno what to do.

am i asking for too much?
however i'm still proud being a 32nd student councillor!
the friendship i built hope will never end.

once a councillor, always a councillor.

Manifest plainness.
Embrace simplicity.
Reduce selfishness.
Have few desires.
Thats life.

XINYU!
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