stepping down

in a few more minutes,
i'll no longer be a councillor of the NYJC
but a 32nd student councillor in my heart.
i did not cry today as i knew i will not.
its not because i dun have e attachment
but it just seems that something is missing.
i saw people takig photos with juniors n seniors,
but i dunno who to take photo with...
seriously.
even the 32nd i dunno who should i take photo with
i dunno who to ask
at that instant moment i was quite lost,
everything seems to become zero, blank i mean?
it's weird and i dun like the feeling.
but i dunno what to do.

am i asking for too much?
however i'm still proud being a 32nd student councillor!
the friendship i built hope will never end.

once a councillor, always a councillor.

spamming.

my mind is filled with a lot a lot of different thoughts right now.
i always think that others life is better than me
(though it seemed true)
and i always complain.
i always feel that god is unfair
i have too many challenes to face in my life
and i dislike it.
why can it be like a river, free flow.

mummy say i always like to compare,
yea indeed.
but thats the only way for me to relief my stress/anger.

FOUR more days and i'm stepping down.
but i'm not doing my last job well
cause i did not set my priority right i guess.

lousy xinyu lousy really lousy.

DREAM ended.

i thought you were the special one
a real special one that caught my attention
i thought faith will make me believe
but your action spoilt everything
i will no longer admire you
no longer.

disappointment is currently my feeling
i dunno how else to express it
i dun see the reason why u have to do this
really.

bye as a friend.

<3 yu

faith make me believe



despite knowing the answer
i wanted to continue
hoping that little surprises will come along
though the process of waiting and hoping
make me tired upset and not motivated
it has its happy meaningful side
which make me continue to wait for you

maybe you never notice
but i just wish for a smile from you everyday
you will never know how much difference
it will make.
a lot to me.

an cute day today,
hope it often happen.

xinyu

Duty make us do thing well,
love make us do thing beautifully.

quote written by adrian and i super LIKE it.
we will often try to do things as the way it should be
and not how we want it to be.
indeed, its difficult for us to change as we should follow
but i believe the love within us will make us do something
special in some way :)

i would very like to do some special thing
but i will often think alot
this is sth i dun like abt myself
tinking too much when i should not
mummy say i should change
but i dunno how?
how? :(

the how question,
one which i dunno how to ans.

sticky sticky sticky,
you made me wonder how too.

<3 yu

waiting aimlessly

its almost going to be 12 and you have not send me your script
so how am i going to do?
i'm sick of asking
forget it
let things flow itself ba
tiring day.

to my dearest dance partner(if u still rmb)
though we did not talk before
i knew you fought hard
may you enjoy yrself in your new world
i will remember you
and hope u do too.

<3 yu

fresh new start


dunno why but suddenly feel like blogging.

maybe its something better than fb.

went with mummy for the karaoke marathon ytd.

she told me there will be food so i went

but i waited for 2 hours listening to karaoke by my ah mas'
there was still no food.

so i left.

just outside cc, an ah ma shouted: girl ah, deng lai!

me: i turned my head and i saw her holding a foodpack

on her hand.

haha, there was food.
though both of my real ah ma n ah gong had nv doted on me,

i'm glad i still had all these other ah ma and ah gong!

they always do cute stuff and made me laugh like mad.



weekends are FLYING away real fast
and i have not really done anything.



i wanted a random surprise for you ytd

but i feel weird so i gave up in the end.

is that a wrong choice? i dunno.



extremely bored

extremely extremely.


<3 yu

Manifest plainness.
Embrace simplicity.
Reduce selfishness.
Have few desires.
Thats life.

XINYU!
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